Wednesday, June 25, 2003
once again i cannot help it but think about RICO. like what i have told some of my friends, once i leave rico come next month, it will definitely feel as if a very significant part of my secondary school life is being taken away. even going back for practices will seem so different, it will almost seem as if nothing can replace that void left behind in my life by rico. ever since i came into rico, i know that i have never faltered in my commitment to the orchestra, n since sec one i have been having this fanatical loyalty towards the orchestra. now we will be leaving the orchestra officially as a graduating batch. i wonder how many amongst this batch of sec 4s will feel the same? i am sure all of us will have similar sentiments, albeit in varying degrees.
i really dun know how to explain it, but juz thinking abt what u've done over the past 4 years will bring u a tide of nostalgia n sometimes u juz cant help but look back upon ur memories and think: "could i have done anything differently? anything at all? have i been giving my best?" and if the answer to the last question is a 'no', then i say without doubt that anyone, be it the slackest bub in the orchestra, will feel at least a slight tinge of regret. i have really always wanted to at least tell my section that, but most of the time i only succeed in getting half my message across, and only in one-on-one conversations to some of my frens.
cant believe that i am beginning to become sentimental even b4 i really graduate from rico ... but really, finally i understand what the seniors had always said during their graduation speeches. till now, i haf always regarded those as meaningless cliches ... i guess its because we all take our time in rico for granted, but as we come closer to our inevitable graduation, we will all start to cherish the very experience of being in an orchestra together, n experiencing the pains, tears, joys and hopes together.
seriously cant believe that i am saying so much b4 i am even a month from my graduation. some of my juniors haf been expressing their 'worries' that our batch will be leaving soon and that they will struggle to replace our batch. juz wan my juniors to know ... there may be times when we all feel insecure being in rico, "does the school support us?", "are we deteriorating?". but all these insecurities come n go. dun worry, every year each graduating batch leaves, and another batch comes in to replace that batch. its all part of a cycle. dun worry, do what u think is right, and u will not go very wrong ... haiz ... i think i better stop tokking so much, i dread to think the length i will write when i REALLY eventually graduate. better leave all those for then. till then, to my juniors, pls cherish ur time in rico, give ur best, and dun give urself a chance to regret ur time in rico in any way whatsoever. haiz ...
i really dun know how to explain it, but juz thinking abt what u've done over the past 4 years will bring u a tide of nostalgia n sometimes u juz cant help but look back upon ur memories and think: "could i have done anything differently? anything at all? have i been giving my best?" and if the answer to the last question is a 'no', then i say without doubt that anyone, be it the slackest bub in the orchestra, will feel at least a slight tinge of regret. i have really always wanted to at least tell my section that, but most of the time i only succeed in getting half my message across, and only in one-on-one conversations to some of my frens.
cant believe that i am beginning to become sentimental even b4 i really graduate from rico ... but really, finally i understand what the seniors had always said during their graduation speeches. till now, i haf always regarded those as meaningless cliches ... i guess its because we all take our time in rico for granted, but as we come closer to our inevitable graduation, we will all start to cherish the very experience of being in an orchestra together, n experiencing the pains, tears, joys and hopes together.
seriously cant believe that i am saying so much b4 i am even a month from my graduation. some of my juniors haf been expressing their 'worries' that our batch will be leaving soon and that they will struggle to replace our batch. juz wan my juniors to know ... there may be times when we all feel insecure being in rico, "does the school support us?", "are we deteriorating?". but all these insecurities come n go. dun worry, every year each graduating batch leaves, and another batch comes in to replace that batch. its all part of a cycle. dun worry, do what u think is right, and u will not go very wrong ... haiz ... i think i better stop tokking so much, i dread to think the length i will write when i REALLY eventually graduate. better leave all those for then. till then, to my juniors, pls cherish ur time in rico, give ur best, and dun give urself a chance to regret ur time in rico in any way whatsoever. haiz ...
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